| 2476  10  3   
 | Johnny puts another  whiskey in front of me. Except for him, me, and Petey, the bar's empty.  "You hear about that up in Wilmette?" he asks."No, what?" I say."A cougar. People say they saw a cougar.""Bullshit.""No shit. Was in the Sun Times this morning.""Sun Times ain't… | 
		
		
			| 2475  2  1   
 | Poem: Zohra El Fassia by Erez Bitton | 
		
		
			| 2475  12  4   
 | None of us in the barn knew what to do about the lowing cows. Their slowly rising complaint started off as a half-hearted protest but soon gained in volume and unsettling portent. | 
		
		
			| 2474  16  11   
 | Their breath stank inside my lungs and tamped down the very minute amount of remorse I had left.  It was replaced with contempt. Their fear warmed my cold sensibility as I steeled myself. | 
		
		
			| 2473  7  3   
 | Christmas is here and there's work to do. | 
		
		
			| 2471  3  0   
 | keep your fiberwigs in check | 
		
		
			| 2470  23  10   
 | Our house was big, red brick, with off-white walls that watched over us while we slept, while we prayed for our souls to be kept, while we shared bath water and bunk beds and the secret of the back closet we will die with and never reveal. | 
		
		
			| 2469  53  25   
 | The Trinity boys don’t blame me at all. They know I am not stupid about the world. I am a robust girl. Nevertheless, like everyone else I have limits. I am a clock that winds down. | 
		
		
			| 2469  34  14   
 | I loved my Dad. He was executed in 1967. He was guilty. | 
		
		
			| 2468  6  1   
 | Watering his pansies in their pots with his ridiculous 
watering can. Sticking his finger in the soil to 
test the dampness. Obviously nothing on beneath 
the silk robe. It’s almost fallen loose a dozen times 
Balding. Maybe in his late forties. S | 
		
		
			| 2467  33  20   
 | He shows a wreaking disregard for the safety of others | 
		
		
			| 2466  9  8   
 | “I’ve been standing across the street for fifteen minutes. I was walking by and saw you weren’t moving. So I watched—you didn’t move at all.” | 
		
		
			| 2463  13  5   
 |         I'm somewhere on  I-10 in Mississippi, barreling westbound at 80 miles an hour through a  rainstorm on a late Wednesday afternoon. The last road sign I remember was for  Beauvoir, some Confederate general's… | 
		
		
			| 2462  47  20   
 | She liked this young woman. They’d met two weeks earlier, when the young woman had been walking her pet chicken on a pink ribbon leash. | 
		
		
			| 2461  8  4   
 | I watched myself tilt my head and coyly smile in the bottom right corner of the chat window-the two off-kilter lamps in the room were casting an asymmetrical shadow over half my face. | 
		
		
			| 2461  29  14   
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			| 2461  8  1   
 | We sat in a row on the long couch and no one's legs could reach the floor. Granddaddy took the first one the kid who no one knew and said to us "the rest of you stay put." | 
		
		
			| 2460  26  20   
 | There is a certain stage of sobriety among men who drink every night. In that stage, they are their best selves: they write novels, fix cars, care for their young. Then they change.
 | 
		
		
			| 2460  9  6   
 | A friend of mine recently died and went to Heaven, or so I innocently thought. It was only when I received a letter a month later postmarked “The Island of Final Regrets” that I realized he was still in transit. | 
		
		
			| 2458  28  20   
 | I popped open the wine
with a Nike shoelace, a trick I learned on the internet | 
		
		
			| 2456  17  11   
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			| 2456  15  12   
 | Larry lies on top of her, he kisses her, his lips, she thinks, are dry, but she prefers dry to wet because overly wet in the mouth is never a good thing. | 
		
		
			| 2455  8  7   
 | “I don't have any position for you,” Ellington told Strayhorn. “You'll do whatever you feel like doing.” | 
		
		
			| 2455  13  6   
 | she's greeting everyone like she's the new fucking Queen of England with her size Z tits, the sequined gown clinging to her overstuffed figure like a mold she'll have to live with,  | 
		
		
			| 2455  9  7   
 | Poetry is my rebellion/
against being what I’m not.
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			| 2455  37  18   
 | On Saturday mornings, by noon, the delivery car comes from Boston and unloads fresh bread and sandwiches, pork ribs and ground pork stuffed inside of breads and buns and banana leaves, bean shakes, and sticky rice desserts. | 
		
		
			| 2454  12  10   
 | honey/she said/with a wink/and a twinkle | 
		
		
			| 2454  5  4   
 | Novelist E.M. Forster said of Auden "Because he once wrote 'We must love one another or die' he can command me to follow him." | 
		
		
			| 2452  24  16   
 | tiny bits     each one found meant  something had blown  apart. that someone  was no longer  with us. but  somewhere that things  were crawling towards  unity    again. another  gun had been  fired. would peace always  start over?   it's funny how  it will. a hand… | 
		
		
			| 2452  10  10   
 | ... and you can’t balance your checkbook or divide a three-way bill in a restaurant but you can still recite all the sixteen ways of SHAUN CASSIDY TELLS: 16 WAYS TO TURN ME ON!  |