by Jill Chan

after Raymond Carver


Fear I'll be stuck here without a ladder

Fear we're all going to the same place but not the same place

Fear I'll go before I die

Fear I'll write many things but say too little

Fear I'll never amount to anything and I'm not even counting

Fear there'll be no need to live anymore

Fear death will not be sweet nor hard

Fear nothing will ever come

Fear everything will leave before it stays

Fear ache is the only state

Fear tragedy rules my life and likes it

Fear authority is telling me things I already know

Fear condemnation arrives like love