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Don't Forgive Me


by Darryl Price


 

 

of anything if that's the way you feel love must go off its last nut before the big crash. But watch out for

thorn bushes that grow from forgotten holes in the ground. You will be

seen as the coming to life new spring devil beneath

the see-through fabric of a cold cold winter. This might even fascinate

some. There's always a taker. So, good luck there. Personally

I never wanted to see you grow permanent horns

 

for me. That's such a boring waste of good fresh breath. Everyone's got

a set by the way, but they don't always harden into forever

unless you miss the time to retract all claws or go salt. Even

then I suppose it's not too bad, because you won't be the

only one being invented wearing a concrete and readymade,

defensive-mode-like helmet of nothing but bone. I mean look at all those leftover dinosaur marbles rolling across the museum floors like last century's unwanted dimes!

 

Never wanted to join a single group of slow plodders

myself. That appears to be such a sad emotional suicide just

waiting to happen, like being eaten alive from the inside out,

of a lonely crowded room shoved around by unseen forces—not my scene, man, not into

it. I've been down long before this but that's no reason to give up on

the fun ghost stuff now. That time will come of its own volition.




Bonus poems:



The Rocks


by Darryl Price


Not sure I remember what's important, but I remember you. 
That's the whole problem I think. You're a drain where 
all my words end up ending up. All of them 
get lost inside you. Eventually. And I'm left with nothing 
to say. Because all my words are gone like toothpaste. 
The few I've got left only seem to repeat themselves 
in pathetic smears. But they'll have to do. Not sure
I can remember anything important, but I say your name
in my sleep. It's all become a boring animal ritual. 
I can admit to that. I remember you used to

wear this yellow teeshirt all the time like it defined
something impossible about you and your motion inside dark jeans.
It drove me mad with desire. And that made you 
laugh. Which drove me over a cliff, into an ocean, 
and left me clinging to slippery rocks for dear life.
So not sure I remember one important thing about anything
if you want to know the truth. But I know 
the song that made you sit still and look at
things like they were puzzles you were putting together in
your head with a little seductive dance. How else am 

I going to describe the sadness back to you now? 
When you're not even listening. And my readers are expecting 
me to swing this crazy thing around and show them 
the secret room inside of themselves. But a broken heart 
can only make cubist desk paintings out of its overly 
hoarded toy stuffs and hope for the best. I can't 
remember what's important to me any more. It was so 
clear to me just yesterday. Oh. Open my eyes. Let 
me see a way. Let me swim before I drown. 
Let me swim before I wash away. I remember you 

as important but I can't seem to remember why. The 
words won't tell me. I'm not sure they think we 
deserve to know the reason. Or they just might be 
trying to protect us from the tilting sun. Oh. It's 
too late for that. Oh, open my head. Let me 
see before I go completely blind from all the salt in my  
own eyes. Running down my face. For all of us 
who are left let my words fight for air. For 
all of us here let my words continue to look 
for fair meaning. And kiss you goodbye. For all the 

lonely floating pieces let my wrecked words shine through the 
slumber of time and ruin. Night and day. Open the 
curtains. I remember you. You were the question I guess
I needed to hear from this life. Thank you for 
asking me. It was a beautiful way to say hello 
and a hard way to say goodbye as the next 
question on the horizon became more solitary in its insistence
on authenticity. Maybe what was so important doesn't matter. But
it remains with me. And I wouldn't want you to 
think of it in any other way than real love. 



Bonus poems:



Goodbye Bees by Darryl Price

Try to understand. There were dragons. Some were friendly, but
they were real dragons. You didn't want to end up 
standing on the wrong side of a belch. Try to 
understand. The barefoot woman standing in the grass just outside
her garden gate was perfect for the sun, perfect for 
any wind. Her hair was like a flag calling you 
to enlist your heart into something more noble. Like a
grand slam to the side of the head. Bees barely 
noticed. Birds typed the words you felt, above her head,
high in the clouds, with their sing-song beaks on full 

tattletale throttle. Try to understand. We were boys. We had
never thought more deeply about what we were doing than 
the invitation. Only the adventure itself ever took us farther 
away. Down the stairs. Down the road. Suddenly we were 
holding on for dear life. Trying to understand frustration. This 
was something new. And hurt in ways no gun could 
ever hope to protect us from. Bees elbowed their way 
past our frozen stampede like we were made of daisy 
chains.Try to understand. We were watching paintings come to 
life.Try. We were lovers. Our hands and faces were
 
for us, only for each to see. Bees buzzed around 
everyone's heads. The barefoot woman moved into a beautiful house 
and stayed behind its white picket windows forever. We were 
young dreamers breathing together.You blew my mind. Is this 
the place we made a secret plan to always appreciate 
the bees? The heart breaks. It's a crime. No one 
claims to have seen anything. The heart breaks. No one 
understands. No one comes. Our hands. Our faces. Our bees.
I got on my tiger. What else was I going 
to do? Now he is my only friend. Good company.


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