by Bill Yarrow
My father taught me how to solder
and that's when I first started to write.
Now, when you hold the soldering
iron in your hand and depress the trigger,
the tip of the gun heats up. Novices uncoil
the solder and place it on the hot tip,
but that just results in it melting and
dripping uselessly into nothingness.
What you need to do is place the tip
of the iron against the contact to be soldered
and then touch the solder to it. Then you'll
get a nice bead against which to lay the wire
you want to connect. I really wanted to form those
nice beads in my poems, but I guess as in tennis and
with exercise and even conversation, easy does it.
So I heated up some nouns and placed some cooler
verbs alongside, but my sentences began to deform.
Then the melted parts started coagulating. Eventually,
I found that verbs needed to be hot. Hot! But if I fired
them up too much, I wound up exploding my piece, so
I learned to be careful about the temperature of words.
It's all about adhesion, the tight seal. You want
the contact to be secure. If a word or a wire pulls
away, the circuit will be broken and the thing
won't work, and it has to. I mean, if the thing won't
work, then what are you doing? What good is it?
My father was a miser about time, but he let me
labor under my delusion, think that I was doing
the work when it was clear I was not. None of my
contacts held. All the wires I connected pulled away.
If you had looked at me from afar, you would have
seen a boy sitting on a wooden stool playing with
contacts, littering a counter with blobs of solder.
If you had looked more closely you might have seen
a boy learning that the best teacher of anything is failure.
Anyway, blistered finger by blistered finger, here I am.
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A version of this poem was published in Libretto, Issue #2 and appears in "Critique of Pure Dreaming" (free download at academia.edu ).
This poem has me thinking hard about soldering. I came from a family where even the girls learn to solder. A lot of good that has done us. We're lazy oil painters now. Good poem, Bill. *
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"So I heated up some nouns and placed some cooler
verbs alongside, but my sentences began to deform.
Then the melted parts started coagulating. Eventually,
I found that verbs needed to be hot."
Especially like the ease of the phrasing and rhythms here - and how relationships and work form us - "blistered finger by blistered finger".
Great piece, Bill.
Love this, a blue print for the process *
"If a word or a wire pulls
away, the circuit will be broken and the thing
won't work, and it has to."
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My father taught me how to solder also... and how to soldier. Two disciplines not very far removed, one from the other, soldiering being as much a peacetime as a wartime discipline, the kind of soldiering a Quaker would not find offensive. Soldering? A little bit of zen, really.
Thank you, Ann, Jenny, Sam, Fos, and JLD!
You put the ars in poetica, Bill.
"...and the thing
won't work, and it has to."
I love the way you write about writing, here and before.... It's inspiring.
Thanks, Joani and Dianne!
“I learned to be careful about the temperature of words.“ Oh yeah. So very good.
"the best teacher of anything is failure", so well we know.
Thank you, Steve and Kitty!
"What good is it?" One of the key questions of existence on most levels, IMHO. *
.."blistered finger by blistered finger, here I am."
Great stuff, as always, from a truly terrific writer.
Thank you, Beate! Thank you, Darryl!