by Darryl Price
I always thought I would feel your hand, always,
Lay with you as we flew higher together, laugh with
You in the little spaces left between certain trees, like tiny blue flowers that only appear suddenly, made secretly
Of openly exposed lights, always find your shining eyes among
A million more, leaning skywards. There has never been a time
When I wasn't aware of your presence in my
Temple of being. This isn't some slowly triumphant dream, nor
A singing desire that flows inside my body, it's just
Something I know without any desperation straining the search engine
For its share of the holy grail's entrails. A familiar absence that calls me
By a name I had all but forgotten in
This lifetime and listens as my response like a
Consecrated prayer burns brightly throughout the tumbled air. Together we make one
Lasting voice calling out of that curse like a blasting of a ringing round of misty morning
Bluebells. We belong in this Paradise, but we are not
In its Paradise now, are we, instead we're stuck in the muddle like
Pennies dropped out of a crumbling stony spire, where we're spent on going someplace
Else completely from now on. It's easy to see why they fear any
Mention of love. Still when I see you smile
Like that I am happy until the very end of days. That's
The only message this song really contains, but over and
Over again. Poems are only sticky moon clouds to them,
Nothing more to believe in than that sort of thing. We do what we can here.
You remain to me of the most beautiful utterance in
The world's busy being born vocabulary. I will always
Listen for your many cities and stars. Until then
you are carved on my ancient walls, gathering all life's roads in your beautiful hands.
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by Darryl Price
Your once shining stage door where you lived went
vanishing into an unexpected
tighter softer watch pocket, the pocket
sailed away with another man's wife. It's
all too true no matter how carefully
we'd wrap it up in yarn and pearls. Oh yeah,
betrayal smells like a fucking fish head
with a lost bell stuffed in its pretty grim
awful lips, feels like an irregular
rough rock pressed into your hand with a slight
fingers shake on it, but there's nothing
more to be done. Some are left behind. Some
kisses are lies. Some lies are kisses. It
doesn't make the blasted hole you're in less
deep to crawl out of, or the sky less wide
and empty. When you've been bombed to hell and
back by a sensuous friendship you're bound
to want to spend a few days licking at
only shadows, but it does no good to
lurk behind a black and white world. Your eyes
need to adjust, that's all, they'll come back to
know color. At least be a part of it,
a brush of it, a smear, a tear, a stream.
Hey now, you get to be a new traveler
as well as a thinner version of your
remaining story. That's more your unique
style any way my beautiful friend. I'm
sorry you got caught by the blues. I wish
we were close enough that I could lift you
out of this hurt forever. You should know that.
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I want to say what we're afraid to say, afraid to admit to ourselves. It does no good to squeeze all these feelings down into a hole in your soul. I say let them out. Let them out and let them go. But you can only do that if you are telling the whole truth, don't leave anything unsaid behind, it'll only fester. Pronounce your love and proceed with your life. Indeed your life is a pronouncement of your love, so it only makes sense that your poems will also make that kind of strawberry statement to the world.
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So much to like about this. So much truth it hurts. This, especially: "You remain to me the most beautiful utterance in the world's busy being born vocabulary." *
Loved this Darryl. Totally agree with Mathew. *
"Poems are only moon clouds to them,
Nothing more to believe."
Good poem.
"We belong in Paradise, but we are not
In Paradise"
Darryl, you always cut right to it. All your poems are knives, this one particularly sharp.
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Your line and stanza breaks are brilliant. *
"You remain to me the most beautiful utterance in /
The world's busy being born vocabulary."
Love this, Darryl. *
I like the way you chose to put 'Else' on the next line in the sixth stanza. I love the last line.