" No honest poet can ever feel quite sure of the permanent value of what he has written: he may have wasted his time and messed up his life for nothing."--T.S. Eliot
I think, okay now I know, the poem's starting to wear off.
But I'm alive, at least for one more day. I need to read more.
I was given these scars you understand to the distant sounds of
fluted out/ hollowed out/ veins, pumping against a perfectly radiant
coming of big buckets of oceans-- to mean something
well almost concrete, I guess you could say that, immediate like "Don't
push me out there just yet. I'm perfectly okay right here where I am. I'll wait for my own small
tide to come in.Then I'll lift myself off this cloud I swear without any more help from all of you, but thank
you very much." Anyway. Life's pretty busy slight of hand applies to all those present at the end of the day. Don't you pretend
to escape any rare kindness offered either. Oh where'd I
put those darned glasses? You know, the ones I always lose
when I'm not able to see that it's been getting
awfully late around this funny little town we swim around in? I'll probably never finish now the few kindly painted
words you washed so sweetly upon my forehead with your long as
the color of the sun swiped sheet of pure and golden
sand combed hair that only you possess. All's fair I guess. Although it breaks
the door to my garden down without so much as
a polite little knock. Sometimes even a small whistle
will do to let someone else know you care enough to
visit them in their wildest dreams. It's wearing thin though. I'm
becoming a vulgar beggar once more.And I need more clues if I am ever
to survive this ongoing deaths-head march I'm on. I'm feeling less and less like turning
the wheel in front of your puzzled faces to make the colors
collide into a one of a kind mountain of ash and smoke
for your amusement. Be gone, all be gone, soon enough, you'll start to
see raindrops on your windshields like bugs. There'll be no other
choice left but the one. Certainly there must be more to us
than conjoint sad notepads and scribbles. Why do I continue
to conjure up from their inky depths to the surface
of the floating mind these alphabetical blocks of
heart-shaped blunders? No matter.No matter. It's just the lack of pure
symbols to the brain speaking in hallucinogenic
tropes I fear. Go sound to sleep my silvery moon girl dancing --
where we can at last find the raw courage once more to continue
to trill our secret names for each other through the various
holes in the towering stars and fan the universe with our many softly blown kissed wishes for some real love .
We'll find more hills of noise if it kills us.
And if it doesn't we'll be back again tomorrow with
our same plastic buckets and shovels to begin once
more to build a new home for no one (One size fitting all the lonely hearts in the whole universe that is).
Bonus Poems:
Weeping Unicorn With Broken Horn
by Darryl Price
Love come back to me. I know you're hiding.
You're right. They showed us no mercy.
Yet are you still constant. Come out,
you're the only thing that works in
tenderness in a universe
of sharp & broken stars. We need your
lingering heady perfume. They
have showed no kindness, fingers made
of thorns, held together with fire.
Wagging tongues full of mountains of
hypocrite's lies. You're the truth we
long to know. Love, please come out. Save
us with your angel Grace. Love come
out. Love come out. You were good at
driving us out of our stupid
self pity. Come out, Amore. We
are ready now to sacrifice
anything to get you into our
wounded breasts again. Love come out.
Let me start over. Your smile is
legendary. We won't ignore
you like the fools we used to be.
Shine your gentle beam right into
our weary red faces. War will
never end by itself. Oh, spark!
Bonus poems:
You Don't Have To Face the Darkness
by Darryl Price
by yourself. You don't have to fight
the darkness alone. I know what
you've been told. They lied. They started
when you arrived. Trust yourself. You
know what feels good. You don't have to
face the dark like a good little
boy or girl. I know what they told
you. It made you afraid. They lied.
You don't have to face the darkness
without a friend. You are never
without a friend. We're everywhere.
Even if you don't see us. You
don't have to fight without feeling
any hope. It's deeper than a
feeling. Take a look. You know what
love is. They lied to make you more
afraid of kindness than anger.
You don't have to face the darkness
if you don't want to. They can't make
you be something you're really not
just because they can make you do
awful things through bullying. They
don't believe their own lies. They are
always pretending not to see
to avoid the obvious death
questions about their own mundane
existing essence on planet
earth. And some of them are simply
pricks of the highest order. You
don't have to fight them unless you
want to survive, you care about
someone else more than just yourself.
The Falsely Dancing Men
by Darryl Price
The world is fallen from Grace. The sky knows this
because its pretty skin is beginning to peel off in
dead clouds. The oceans know this because their barely breathing
tubes are clogged with so much dirt and are turning
skeletal white. Very little is getting in and very little
is coming out. The world is fallen from grace. The
gloomy forests know this because of the interruption of ancient
wisdom once being passed down from bough to root, and
from root to stream, is over. Each generation is now
on their own to find out beauty, truth and goodness
because the dancing men have made off with all the
whole body healing cuts of sunshine. All that's left is
like hot knives. The dancing men have stolen soft rain
from us and hid it in a bursting barn somewhere
in the middle of nowhere. The world is fallen from
grace. Every night they fire their guns into the torn
apart skies. Everything is used to build more guns. The
world is fallen from grace. Earth is a skin and
bones lonely prisoner of the easy money used to grow
more of the hungry kinds of money crops. The elephants
are motherless. The angry dancing men still shoot them between
the eyes with cannons anyway. Have you seen a butterfly?
Birds fly around in packs like wild ravenous dogs. But
I am your poet. And I am here to tell
you I have found butterflies in your eyes. I have
seen blue skies when you smile. Dip your hand in
the water where my dreams live and I'll watch all
hope come rushing back to life. A tree can feel
your loving presence from a mile away. So can I.
It's not all on your shoulders either. We are in
this search for honor together. That's the meaning of any
poem I write for you. Love gives day and night.
Bark Bark Bark (Flying Portuguese)
by Darryl Price
The one thing you could do for him
to make him feel better about
being crucified every day
of his life, you won't. Instead you
wait for the stranger and give it
to him. Bark bark bark. You don't have
to know something to know nothing.
Bark bark bark. Duck foot pattern. You
know this makes you smile. Why lie? Bark
bark bark. Wish there was an easier way
to tell you I'm still in love with
you, as you talk on the phone, as
you roll down the window, as you
drive away, smiling and laughing
with your best friend. I suppose you've
tossed me a kind of absence. The
road looks like a meaningless old
monlogue now. The parking lot
looks corrupt and sad sacked, as tossed
aside as a cardboard mask dropped on
the forgotten grass after some
major fireworks display. Bark bark
bark. The new world is coming to
another end. Bark bark bark. Hope
you can hear me. I've got nothing
to say. Again. Bark bark bark. Who
knows? Bark bark bark. I don't desire
only to make myself useful.
I am no apologetic
monk sitting on a roof waiting
for the gift of grace. You've either
got it or you don't. Bark bark bark.
And of course you do. Look in a
mirrored surface. Listen to the
image. Bark bark bark. One of us
is still thinking. Bark bark bark. This
is the only way I know how
to reach you through a million grains
of sand. Bark bark bark. Remember
to forget me. Bark bark bark. You
scared? Me, too. Bark bark bark. I guess
you're entitled. But why are we
under heaven? The earth is a
little rock. Does that make us all
little rocks, too? Bark bark bark. None
of that is what I wanted to
say. Say. Hum me another love
song. Bark bark bark. Why does every-
where have to be so lonesome? Bark
bark bark. The moon is a dime found
in the dryer with the missing
socks. Bark bark bark. They're all thinking
about something else. Bark bark bark.
Look the word up. Look all the words
up. Tell them to all go jump in
the lake. But do it in a new
way. Bark bark bark. Listen. Let's both
take it easy here now. Let the
darling clutch out slowly. Slowly.
Save your goodbyes. Bark bark bark. It's
almost beyond recognition.
Bark bark bark. Bark bark bark. Bark bark
bark. Bark bark bark. Bark bark bark. Bark
bark bark. Bark bark bark. Bark bark bark.
Lusby Sees Some Tulips
The first thing the very first goddamn thing I thought was who in the world doesn't know me well enough to send me of all the people in the whole stinking wide world a bunch
of frilly over the top red tulips, and there was no escaping the fact of the red mind you,
like a bunch of tiny paper box kites all tied up in a twisty pile of
snuggled together tree toes, gross, too cute for me,caught as surely as minnows in a shiny tin measuring cup. At
least something over in that general vicinity of reality was shining from a polished table top. Could have
been a gum wrapper for all I know now.But that was through some still fuzzy
eyelids. What brought the whole thing smack dab back up to me as a sharp as hell relief
was a small little corner of torn blue sky that had gotten itself all pushed into
the edges of the one and only window allowed in the antiseptic smelling room like a used and
discarded tissue. I was also thinking I sure could use one of those soft reminders
about now but then I thought what for? My eyes were already cleared or clearing obviously and
my nose seemed to be working okay, although all I could smell was some awful
pungent hand soap smell, the kind that is named after a fancy fragrance found somewhere in
nature but is secretly made all out of nothing but harsh chemicals. I couldn't really turn myself around
in bed so I couldn't begin to escape the goddamned tulips, although by now they
tended more towards tightly fitted pink roses of some sort, which was a bit of a welcomed relief I guess. I only wanted to get my hands on a nice big
warm mug of chocolate milk and shove myself down into the furthest corner of my very
own comfy couch at my own bit of home and watch a few minutes of westerns on
TV. Doesn't matter what's on or what's doing. I love TV. It brings me down out of the heights of fear every time I see it shine on brightly.I guess that means
I was afraid of tiptoeing through the tulips. I don't really know why. I guess it's all
the so-called canned laughter they layer on the poor puns and bad jokes.On TV
I mean. Not the tulips.The situations that can heal themselves right there in your living room in oh let's say
a half an hour or so. And the crazy,fun people hanging out in bars and coffee shops. I love to see
all them beautiful young people, living their lives as if we don't need to spend so much time worrying about the blazing meteorites coming at us from outer space. We've been lucky so far.At
least not all the whole time we've been alive. Sometimes we just want to have a little fun with one another. Perhaps that's what I've missed the opportunity for all my life. Now I'm paying for
it. Is that it?And then just like that the fickle pink roses seemed like a
box of squared to be found tulips again and I thought,fuck,sorry lord, what
is this all about anyway? Who are these strange eyed people I can feel here in
my room with me but cannot begin to see in any proper sense? I know if something's being spelled out in
flowers or not. Believe me. Please.Do not try to brighten my sleep for me.
I have angels for that.They'll do a fine if not bang up job all on their feathered
own time. And they sound just like a bunch of shaking bells when they are walking towards you. I
ought to know. I've been walking with them now for several months on end.Hello.Yes I know who you are.
Might You As Well Then
be wearing each and all of Heaven's smiles, after a baby blue modern mile line
of self perpetuating star shine, for your simple shawl this evening? I indeed think
so!That's what I'm saying to you.As your shape cascades without needing to
see any other light source to perform its own bright miracle on me. The spinning
out of control universe only seems to right itself whenever you lay down anywhere.
This I know for a fact. I've become your beauty's strict apostle.Even now
once mighty fighting galaxies are found neatly folded against your secret skin of skins
like pulled down for the night bridges or collapsed wings. When you dare move even a small
pearly inch they may or may not decide to click clack back into place
and become functional again in all time and every neat space. You don't need
to know the laws of physics when you write them up as
you go. When you are somehow become still as lava all internal
functions seem utterly bewildering to me, simply to keep you warming in a
certain spot as a rubber bottle filled with the history of every
sunlight ever laid down upon this earth until now; or too like
a single spiteful cat who only knows its true name when played
through your split parterre lips.Otherwise you know it doesn't speak any
English at all around the you know who and the you know
what. So your mind much like your hips is the receiver of
unbelievable and delicate deliverance from the presence of air itself that makes
many more poets than me want to smash everything else in the
room to tiny bits until all that is heard is the one swooshing
tide of your solitary music on life itself. Please accept this shard of a heart
in going peace. Let our kingdoms know no boundaries except for the right ones that pronounce our love is supreme.
This is an experience of a poem. Beautiful.
Thank you, Gill. That's exactly what I meant it to be.
"There's the beauty to it. I don't pretend
to escape rare kindness either. Oh where'd I
put those glasses? You know. The ones I always wear
when I'm not able to see that it's been getting
awfully late."
Enjoyed the poem, DP. Good phrasings throughout.
Thanks, Sam. It's always an honor to see you at one of my poems.
"Probably never finish the
song you washed upon my forehead with your long as
the color of the sun wiped sheet of pure and golden
sand combed hair. All's fair I guess..." Yes, I guess it is. Another poem as dessert, DP. I will return often for tiny, tasty morsels.*
Thanks, JP!
Magical poetry:
pure / symbols to the brain speaking in hallucinogenic / tropes
This is almost a complete/incomplete life in the telling. Beautiful poem!
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"Sometimes even a small whistle / will do to let someone know you care enough to / visit them in their dreams."
Darryl, keep fanning the universe with kisses.
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