Have to Find a Way
I have to find a way
To evolve
To become
To grow into something else
To become something else
I have to find a way
To let go
Loosen my firm grasp
Watch it all fall away
Let myself fall away
Drop this act
This weight
This mess of a life
This mess
I have to find a way
To be okay
With what has been done
To accept what has been done
To find balance
An even surface to rest my regrets
A plateau of normalcy
I have to find a way
To be less of what I don't want
And more of what I do
To open the gates
To crash the walls
To break through
Or break even
Or break down
And move on
I have to find a way
Or I will crumble
Everything from my saddened heart
To my weakened limbs
To my haunted memories
To my tired eyes
These thunderous clouds
Will follow me forever
If I let them
They will lead to my demise
I have to find a way
To change
To transform
And perhaps I might
Still recognize the person I am in the end
Maybe the biggest change
Will be that I have not changed at all
I love this, step by step. Fav*
I want to add what I love about this poem: the simplicity and rhythm, the richness of yearning and emotion; the way it comes full circle; maybe I'm ok being me. There's much more, but I want to read it again and again, a young woman trying to find herself.