Fool of Me

I understand you might come upon a bed of broken
stones and that scares you. Others went before you, they're gone. You're
the lucky ones now able to navigate the world on your own terms. That's why it seems that this must be the 
first ever material moonlight traversed through time, part of you knows it
isn't. Someone else must have felt something inside so big once that it 
simply carried them away into the rest of their lives forever.
That flood is coming at us as sure as we're alive. Don't wait to
discover your exit wings. All they wished for was so they could  
right then kiss without running out of more time.

Don't know what I
was thinking once you gave me your softness like that. It knocked
me out to feel such beautiful closeness in a person's hand. I
never wanted to let go of that simple truth, and that moment's
hesitation caused a generated spark to leap up my arm and into
my brain like a fourth dimensional waterfall. Some days later I find
myself still standing on those dampened banks, unable to forget what I
saw expanding from inside that suddenly illuminated submarine window.

Now here I am, sit typing
my way toward another dead hour. Something shadowy on these walls stacks
my efforts neatly into square cardboard boxes. There it goes fading
for so long like a train as night walks by as the
curtains insist on reminding me of just how alone I am and
remain as ever standing in silent witness. Some say it's a gift.
Others have lost their treasured voices for good. I've got mine gathered
in a bitter glass bottom that must be holding all the calcified
pain in there too. Here is only a numb town given over
to splashing winds and roaming bands of spitting rain.

This isn't anything
new. I've swept myself coming back this way before. With so many
tears cried upon this old love song you'd think the world would
have been completely washed away by now. Yet here it sits. Can
you imagine such a thing? How many words believe what people cannot?
Why must a heart lead me astray again? What's the point? You
are.

Well that's the news from the mysterious lost islands for now. There's been no new 
changes in the weather. The rain slaps its long wet hair against 
the window and begs me to join her outside in wailing sorrow.
But that wouldn't be loving you as much as I want. That
wouldn't be giving you the chance to go on looking for your
perfect happiness elsewhere in the big bad wilderness like any pretty beast
must. It wouldn't be giving you this poem. This I can and will do.




Bonus poems:

The Kitty Cat Made the Stiff Little Nose in the Air Bushes Wiggle

like that groan inducing old rubber pencil

trick in the wide-eyed wrinkled hands

of another fake magician or parent.  Or is it

the purest of silliest delights, a  

fully realized grand tour of pretense with

me as your guide or the gathered mossy expertise

that turns the obvious one-man joke into

something more incredulous once again? Presto! I've still

got your nose. See? Nothing works. Everything

is a lie. Or it all

simply becomes killingly boring, what you're willing to

invest in through your given over eyes

to its cartoon character for the sake

of one tiny moment's humane hesitation

before the inevitable storm and fall of

what's real and actually hurts. That's where

we'll meet I'm so sure of it now.

And where does this nuclear incident

of laughter fit into the quick palm

of timeless Beauty on her natural

order of all things dull and dusty ?

(Everything else acted Perfectly Normal. Let's

get that straight right now,mister.) That's the

sticky thing about accepting this job.

You don't necessarily get to choose what

form and shape of the next

messenger. And that's just the very first

part of the all consuming process

as you suck through the door. After

that you're left with your hands on 

your knees, of course. Now what to

do with all that left over

painted landscape paper? Hey it's your play Shakespeare

after all.  So where do you keep

the  poor sewn onto strings puppets after

they do your evil bidding anyway?

Can you blame us for wanting to break open that chest and 

steal them away? Please. I've got a straight pin. Allow me.












Love Letter from the Last Elephant(a draft version)

We all hear the stories
coming right up out of
the dust. We see the same
sky, the same stars. We've met

our own deaths forever.
We know what's happening.
Because of this some of
us will come willingly

to have chains put around
our feet. Some others must
never be anything
but free. This way they can

still lead with their hearts.We
cannot save us. You could
not save yours either as
he was bleached and became

a ghost. There is little
time for this conversation
before the planet
can no longer pronounce

our names correctly. Then
there will be no one to
call us home again by
trumpet or full foot stomp.

It may sound funny to
you but we have tasted
the rain, flowers, grass;
it tastes right, we believe.