whatever else—your youth, your hair, your innocence—
you have not lost nerve.
the snake coiled behind our parents' backs you left me
to escape alone.
(does it do to vilify our poor dead parents
for their legacy?
did you find some snake to whisper consolations
and then believe them?)
the blazing hope you chose for our breath was not ours,
was no joint birthright.
the music you taught me you never learned to play—
mine, you hardly heard.
to me you confessed the wet substance of those fears
I never betrayed:
once, darkness invaded my most hidden basement,
you could not be found.
reproach me for your exile, but I kept you, yes,
kept you to the end.
when you betrayed the vain ambition of my death,
I did not complain.
if now I have moved my tomb without telling you,
you might wonder why:
instead, you accost me with stealing some boxes
the blood, the bone, the brain diverted from my head
drains not just from me.
my shards sink and scatter, soil . . .
All rights reserved.
Memory does not take us backwards only, no.