Movies and Songs

Religion,

and lovers,

like movies,

and songs,

leave us to feel anything

but lonely.

Maybe that is what connects us,

what is innate to us all:

a crusade against solitude.

There are places,

Heavens, 

where we gather,

together, 

for eternity;

where we reunite with a collection of people

whom we never kept.

Some songs,

and arts,

and sciences,

make us think against our human nature,

leaving us to believe,

that we will be found

alone,

apart.

And then, 

you are there,

doing what our species 

prays we never have to do:

wonder.

Our consciousness was thought 

to be a gift from God,

or from an evolutionary process 

that labeled us

apex,

Yet it is our affliction,

as we can only ever be 

unsure.

I don't know

if it is better to leave such matters

unaddressed,

maybe to be oblivious to such a conversation

would mean I could sleep better

or I could fall in love.

And I don't know if investigation,

or acknowledgement,

 would ever lead to peace,

or promise.

But I am quite sure,

in my loneliness,

there is nothing that aches inside me more,

than a desire to persist.