and I saw this man mopping a floor. He did
not look like a monk, and he was smiling at
something I could not see. You would not find me
and I was beautiful. You would not find me and
you closed that memory. I thought that was unfair and
maybe it was, but when did you decide to shine
someplace else? You would not find me and the door
began to swing open. Were you the one who pushed too hard?
All I know is you would not find me and
there is significance--what shall I say now?--in the
only remaining photo of us. You would not find me
and it's a tough decision to go on. You would
not find me and I wasn't the only one who held
a shooting star at arm's length just to prove a
pretty point. You would not find me and I was
in love with you. You would not find me and
the sky was falling. You would not find me and
it seemed to me like you were stuck in a
very bad movie. You would not find me and here
we are, a hundred years ago instead of here now.
That's where you said we belonged and I believed you
when you said it. But still you would not find
me and I fell and lost. Everything else is what
it looked like to me. You would not find me and the
whole world died inside. You would not find me and
I thought maybe it wouldn't really matter. I think I'm
prepared to deliver the unspoken boom now. You would not find
me and you can say whatever you want. You would
not find me and I awoke in the English literature
department on the floor with my head in my hands.
You would not find me and the shadow on my
broken heart is still a blank canvas. You would not find
me and now I want to say you don't love
me. You would not find me and I'm going back
to the beginning without you. You would not find me
and I sort of had a personal interest in being somewhat
happy. You would not find me and I admit I
was a little shaken up by the whole thing. There's a strong wind coming.
You should go inside. You're never going to find me
and that's maybe as it should be. You would not find
me and I see nothing has changed. You would not
find me and you probably won't find this poem either.
You would not find me and I meant to carry
you home. You would not find me and I sit
here strumming my guitar, waiting for the lost chord's reappearing stranglehold.
Bonus Poems:
Just the Person I Was Looking For(What Took You So Long?)
by Darryl Price
It's all dull stuff made fabulous by
your own poetry or at least some
poetic sensibility. Truth
is, you'll be able to see me at
any time by simply looking through
the words, but will I see you as well?
I'd like to think so. Otherwise all
those crazy lovesick letters I sent
back to Emily Dickinson won't
really matter to her. And still I
believe, like any fool on a fool's
errand, that there must be a way, a
deeper connection that doesn't fail
because of time or space, molecules
or atoms. And all I want is to
say hello. And maybe thanks. You did
good and it's still happening today.
Weird Noises Coming from Everywhere
by Darryl Price
You're fine. Well you make a beautiful
difference to me. That's all I want
to say. Yes there're whale bone figurines
in the world of men and these things have
a most sorrowful power, but they
are only vibrations. What you do
with them will define your character
in the days ahead. It's always been
that way. You're fine. You light up the night
forest as much as any other
moving creature searching the ground for
another moment of rest. We meet
or we don't, but we're never without
each other's stories. They get told to
us by our own voices in the wind.
You can call it by another name,
but be careful. Some you might not want
to say out loud. You're fine. Did you think
there was a place anywhere without
its dangers to your heart? Even in
love we must face the trials of living
with our choices. Will you walk the beam
in balance because you believe or
fall because you have no real faith in
anything you can't see? The road comes
into the house with all the other
univited guests. You can't sweep them
away to the obvious corner,
but you can always learn to carry
on. You're fine. Enjoy your night alone.
Happy Thanksgiving (God Bless Us Everyone) by Darryl Price
It's okay
to turn
on your light
if you
can't see.
"You would not find me and I meant to carry you home."