That was the old me. Walking on a down
hill. Going nowhere, but still looking for
a better way to get there. And you were
the one person who truly saw me, clear
as a crystal bell. You noticed I was
not invisible, at all. You tried to
say it, thank you. But you and I both knew
it wouldn't matter to any of them.
It was almost dinner time. Or some other
kind of time. I simply disappeared
myself when you weren't looking anymore.
And you haven't seen me since. Is that right?
You see me now in these rolling words, spiraling
around and around these alphabetical
hills, like some kind of madman
on a makeshift sleigh. Still determined to
be left alone. Still searching for a way
to remember something so beautiful,
but long ago lost among the now defunct
wildflowers. The seasons came and took
the flower's bones far away from our shrinking
memories, so what're you doing here
at this late hour? Haven't you had enough? --
I feel like I might have. It's like your time
didn't come when it said it would, and you
think it might possibly have something to
do with you once seeing me walking the
shadowy hills like a ghost. Didn't you
get a good enough look at all that new
age cap and gown ceremonial stuff
last time you opened a magical book?
Or did you lose something far too precious
in the tall grass that day, too? We all do.
It's not your fault. The worker winds eventually
blow everything away, to
sandy bits. Only love privately mourns.