"In my life, I love you more." John Lennon/The Beatles
We were never really rolling in the
same Chinese dragon bowl together, but
our heart bag was just big enough for two.
I loved that. Chocolate is such a good
peace maker among friends. Don't you think? I
mean, it's the cake that brings out all the sharp
knives. However, we could use them to cut
ourselves a large enough hole in the back,
when no one is watching, and escape out
to the night, which is just another black
bag. Potentially, to square one again.
If we were in the same blue bowl, it was
more like some kind of scattered light from a
nearby window pane capturing sunset
than a little fire started from a dream
spark. I saw your instantaneous speed,
like a landscape from a slow moving train,
skating on by. Go out of frame. I've spent
my whole life painting different clouds, in
search for the right sky, ever since, on all
the ceilings of my life. It's the least I
can do. That's what Rembrandt taught me. You can't
return to anywhere, but you can be
mentally present and accounted for
by your actions in the now seat. That way,
you can also see into all things, back
and forth, like with deliberate brush strokes,
finding exactly what you are looking
for still being itself in the not so
lost after all moment. That bag's always
sitting there, where you and I left it. Some
people might go mad looking inside it
much too eagerly. Others get mad at
deciding if it's worth the bother. For
me, I like the realness of it domain,
just as it is, without putting too much
false hope into where its portal lives. Does
it really matter if it's endless eyes or
a kissable mouth you are drawn into?
You can't suck the wisdom out of its wound,
but you can kick the knowledge of it on
down the road with your travels--but only
if you are not already carrying
enough heavy bags with you . You've still got
to be steady on your feet, my friend, eh?