the passing teardrops, raining outside the crisscrossed windows. Anyway. I
don't mind. I say
it's not too bad. I did
the best I could to make a work of original
outsider art out of the soft gang of incorruptible birds
setting high flying traps outside my window. I must admit
when you tore down the maroon curtains and dramatically wrapped
them seductively around your naked self, I thought you were
only making a latest fashion statement, not a robbery diversion.
I didn't get the allusion for the longest time. Only
now do I feel like something has straightened out in
me, has finally happened in here, but it
could be
just a crack upon the light finally settling into the
stalactite ceiling joints. It could be the crack is in
my own head, letting out too many halfway baked bean
ideas. I swear I can hear bagpipes rampaging through a
child's ghostly birthday party. They're not all a joyful sound
to me, but a lament and a plea for some
instant return to sanity( and sea). The ocean has a
mighty string pull, even this far out from heaven's shores.
Oh, I'm pretty sure they don't want the likes of
me all up in there, I've got way too many
questions. I'd be the first one to ask, hey, fellows,
why all the sorrow, when such a little bit goes
such an awful long, long way? I'd be thrown out
with all of my crazy poems, fluttering down beside me
like store-bought artificial tears, artificial petals, artificial butterfly wings. Yes,
it's going to be a long, slow fall back down
to the ruined ground I'm afraid. Like heavy dyed blue
wool blankets, crumpled up in the wintery corner; no one
is going to want to have to lift those up
all by themselves, if
they don't have to. I can't
say I blame them. I made my narrow escape long
ago. I won't give up that sheer thread of freedom
now. I could always feel it caught in my throat
you know, as a boy, the path on a forever
Cosmo trajectory and I was stapled to it by a
million tacky sad stars. I'd like to share a cigarette
with a comedian now. I can't give it up, that
kind of bursting forth laughter. and I won't. That's all
I know for sure. The rest is like pulling yourself
roughly through a small cluster of sticker bushes, you don't
have a fun
choice if you want to cling to
an authentic existence of songs about the loneliest experience. Oh.
Don't worry, I see the irony there. You're damned if
you do and lonely if you don't. The skeletons dance
regardless of all the funny faces you'll be pulling; make
to clear yourself of all impending charges. But, what they
say on eye in the sky television is not what
we should ever want to see happening in real life.
You mustn't be quiet. Whatever it is it doesn't matter,
but to me, and for me, I've always
treasured what
no one else could seem to hear was going on.
And inside that wonderous landscape of impertinent noises I somehow
found you, dancing like a mythical faun, around a sun-beaming,
splashing fountain of youth. I could no more give up
dreaming that dream again than give up breathing for a
good enough living. So there you go, more poems than
you'll ever know what to do with. And one last
stupid thing: I've never felt so glad in my entire
life to let go of my few earnest words and
believe that they'll surely make their own friendly way back
home again. A sweet Goodnight to all of you then.
And the moon with her flawless arched back. Especially the
hanging down moon. Yes, it's you I'm talking about. It's
always been about you. How many times do I have
to say it? I'm tired of saying it, to be
quite honest, but pretending it isn't true is just not
me. I could wish you a light, simple rain, but
there's just too many interpretations of that sly report for
a good night's sleep to occur. It isn't a feather,
but then what is? Now you see me. Now. You.
Don't.