"… The deeper you go, the higher you fly
The higher you fly, the deeper you go"--The Beatles
We aren't missing. Will we be
later? They continue to cause grief.
Those three things, do they bother
you? They aren't taller than you.
They are smaller. It's in the
poor way they treat others, always
believing the worst. Always looking for
a bigger confrontation. It's tiring. She
combs her hair. We aren't listening.
Not all the way in. More
you learn, the deeper you are.
You find yourself still being here,
just more aware inside. It
isn't a cloud. It's not a
gold city. It's not a light,
okay light but it's alive. I
started to drink. Just thought I'd
throw that in--stop being so
sure you want to know everything.
It's heartbreaking. We aren't missing. Yet.
Later, when we're tired of living.
Convincing ourselves we aren't sure. Do
you know who I am? Will
we all understand later? They'll probably
drag as many of us as
they can away. We aren't loving
and merciful, as a rule. It
won't matter one bit. They continue to
bomb the shit out of anything
that moves against them. We aren't
lying. Let's do some living in
spite of their bitter quest for
power. I like your presence and
company. It makes me glad. What
more can I say? We aren't
anywhere but here, no matter the
storied distance between each life. We
aren't as together as might be,
but I'm still feeling those lips
smiling at me with loving kindness.