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THE OPPOSITE OF A GROWTH SPURT


by Amanda Deo


I'm aware I will never be a woman the night you leave me for another city. I'm most aware of this when I touch people's biceps and text my old boyfriends and tell them it's only ever been you.  I know it will never happen in the same way I can't ask you how your day was or  let you seek shelter underneath me during a blackout.  Inside the station I sit next to you but pretend we aren't together when someone asks for directions.  I hold my foot on your shadow's neck while you look away waiting for the next train. On the platform I disappear into a trench coat that sells knock-off watches. In the next city you will re-adjust your clothes and I will never be found and the light will take so much longer to reach me.

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