He is an exercise in humility:
What I cannot have or be.
The chances of our meeting
and his perfection are
darkly astronomical.
There are plenty of others
whose riches I cannot have,
why envy him?
We are similar in sprit
but have different fortunes.
It is unfair and upsetting.
In the darkness before I sleep
I imagine my hands around
the supple skin of his neck.
It is pale and quivers
as he breathes and swallows,
as he lays his head backwards.
As I press harder I could
feel on my cheek his breath
fading away and returning,
tides of air from his nostrils,
his life entering and exiting,
his windpipe a flute
a lone instrument
in a Requiem.
"We are similar in sprit/
but have different fortunes."
Excellent. "A" not minus. A hair of a fraction of a grade point off for "exercise in humility" as if others can exercise humility in one.
I hate envy. I'd prefer to wring its little neck. It's a killer.
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