Ditto
It was dinnertime, not gossip time but she didn't seem to notice a difference those days, not since losing her job at the Dress Barn. Any chance she got, she'd talk about the misfortunes of others like she was comparing their hardships to her own until she'd get to crying and carrying on. Talking about her poor daddy and how the last time she saw him, he was standing outside the house he built—with his bare hands, what have you ever built with your bare hands?—like he was counting each brick. She had loved him but didn't tell him enough and you've gotta tell the people you love that you love them and did John reckon that old daddy knew her love for him? Well. Did he? John just wasn't sure how much more he could take of it. Not tonight after he'd run into Jane Leary in town and she'd looked at him with that diamond on her finger like they—she and him—were missing out on something. Like he needed one more thing he was missing out on.
“You going to finish that salad?” John had stopped being cautious long ago, agonizing over how to word his questions, his answers.
His voice had lost the pleading quality it once had and now it was tired without yet being defeated. The way he saw it, she'd keep on him until he sounded defeated or she put him in the ground, if they weren't one in the same.No, she said in her vicious tone, adding multiple syllables where there were none, to better enunciate her hatred of whatever he'd just done or said. I ain't going to finish my salad.
He didn't respond, waiting.
You wanna know why?
He'd come to treasure her questions as opportunities not to answer her, to withhold from her for a change something she wanted.
John! Do you want to know why I ain't. Gonna. Eat. My. Salad?“No, Nikki, I don't.” He looked straight at her, not to challenge her, but to better gauge what it was she would throw at him. Her eyes always darted to the thing right before her red, swollen fingers snatched at it, like a thing possessed.
A couple times he'd actually caught the thing—a salt shaker, her ring, and a spoon. That made her the most angry. Then there was no time to respond, she'd start grasping anything within reach, flinging them before her fingers had fully clasped around it. Those nights he slept in their camper, the door locked, listening to her screaming from the house.
He stared at her, anticipating the sting of something against his cheek or the crash of her bad aim.You don't give a damn about anybody but yourself, you know that?
He laughed a little.
I hate you.
He started to say it back, started to pull his jaw toward his throat into the simple and overused vowel, but stopped himself, thinking of Niagara Falls making its way out of the United States, away from him. He thought of the mountains he wouldn't climb, the nature trails where he'd never lose his affinity for oatmeal, the women he could have loved, that might have loved him back. Might not have hated him. He thought of the children, who looked more like Nikki, the only reason he could look at her anymore. He thought of Jane's leather purse that made a sound like keys as their bodies pushed against it from either side, a casualty caught in the middle of their misplaced passion. He licked his bottom lip as if to taste her there.
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Author's Note
This is a story about wringing a cloth long after it's dried.
i like v much te idea of a dress barn
and that last line---yeppers
and well, of course, that author's note:
zing
to zang
Good opening, here. I'd have liked to see it go on a bit.
(the entire piece, that is, to be longer)
Love how this Jane woman enters the stage right at the end and how that renders everything that came before with extra layers of meaning.
The last lines are stupendously good:
"He thought of Jane's leather purse that made a sound like keys as their bodies pushed against it from either side, a casualty caught in the middle of their misplaced passion. He licked his bottom lip as if to taste her there."
Really delicate and insightful work, very much enjoyed this. grounding, real and unexpected moments, attention to detail, good dialogue... these characters live, and this is a winner. And the end is just gorgeous.
A story that hurts. Bad relationships in spades. A cardinal issue for sure.
Wow, thanks for all of the feedback! I love these people, especially since we come in at the end of their relationship.
Gary: Ha, I didn't mean for it to be a zinger, but I like to indulge in metaphors anywhere that's not in my stories. :)
Matt: Thanks for reading! I've struggled with adding more to it because I just want to show one moment that allows you to look back as well as forward for them.
Kathy: Thanks so much. Those last lines caught me off guard writing them, and I'm glad they're darling to others as well, so I don't have to kill them.
Meg & Jack: Thank you so much for the kind words. I'm always grateful to know there are emotional repercussions of my stories.
Oh sad, but feels so real. Well done. Thank you.
Thank you, Pamela!
Love this, Melanie. Vivid and painfully human. Her frustration, his infidelity...its The Story. Im just obsessed with relationship dynamics behind closed doors. This is really Aces.
Glad to find you here.