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Elegy on a country rooftop


by Brad Fisher


Willa knows why Jimmy reached for the thirty ought six

Chambered a round

With three more clinking in his pants pocket

And took to the roof


Climbed the stairs while photos looked on

  • them at Kennywood
  • them at Hersheypark
  • and that one trip to the World
  • Tropical heat pounding on them and the kids in Tomorrowland

And out over the front porch to wait for nine one one to do its thing.


It wasn't agent orange or the agents from the IRS

That put the steel in Jimmy's eyes

Eyes that swept the yard like they would from his deer stand

His daddy's deer stand

His brother Bud's deer stand

Not for Bambi, not here, 

But for whatever, nothing really, and finding

A hollow stack of threadbare tires

T-shirts hanging fire, clothespinned at the yard's perimeter

A woodchopper whirligig with no paint


She knows why but it's not a why you can say in so many words.

It is what it is, 

and what it is, 

is so many words that no one can say it.

Words that became heat and hurt, again and again

Until she knew it wasn't her

(Like in the DeNiro flick they watch)

And stopped trying to understand.


He's up there waiting now for what didn't happen to him in 1971

What happened to the kids beside him in the jungle

What happened that was clean, simple, somehow right

What should have happened to him?

All of us?

But not him.


The yard fills up with light and heat and dust and the squawk of radios

And boots on the ground.

Willa puts the phone down and says goodbye.


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